1 Mother 2 Another

I have spent most of my life putting my
trust in God, and though it’s a rocky path sometimes, I do
know- in my heart of hearts – that I can trust in Him, and
know that His plan is better than mine. I can honestly say that I
trust Him with my life.

My kids’ lives? That’s a different story.


I seem to think that this is the ONE area where God just
won’t be good enough, or care enough, or know enough, or
something. I’m continuously trying to surrender control of
them to Him, and just as quickly snatching it back into my own
arms. I worry – about things I can control, and things I
cannot. This is, after all, MY JOB, and God has given these kids TO
ME to steward through their first couple of decades. I don’t
want to let Him – or my girls – down. So last week
rocked my world a bit, what with losing a friend who had four young
children of his own, then watching Boston and West, Texas both take
terrible hits.


And when things happen and I want someone else to explain to me
what I already know, but can’t quite DO – I turn inward
and press hard into God. And while I find peace and strength there,
when I’m ready I turn outward to see how other people are
processing things.


Yesterday I read Glennon’s excellent essay href="http://momastery.com/blog/2013/04/18/how-to-keep-our-babies-safe/"
target="_blank">How To Keep Our Babies Safe over at
target="_blank">Momastery. And she said exactly what I was
feeling, and just wasn’t able to say.


So go and read it yourself. Totally worth it, I promise.